you get that.. don't you

it never ends and i'm whole heartedly convinced, people aren't always what they appear to be 99% of the time. there's always a hidden agenda of sorts. people always want something. common courtesy or compassion cloaks their personal intent.
fucking lame and weak.
i always thought people did the things they did for me because it was in their nature or cause they really just wanted to do it. i should've known better, countless times before. i know better now. a gift is never simply a generous sincere gesture... it is no different from a bribe to sweeten something else. i just don't get it.i do the things i do cause i want to or cause i think its the right thing to do. i give people gifts not to buy their favour but because i want them to have it. you'd think that the cosmos would shine down and return the favour? hell no! everything's an investment isn't it. someway or the other. everyone has a price. even i do, but i've yet to meet someone who can afford it.
people want a fucking medal for the good things they do. if that be the case, you're better off not doing anything cause you're doing it for all the wrong reasons and thats bad.
*sigh
my endless lamenting. pointless, dry and incessant.
relationship? well... no better i guess.
but you get that... dont you!